| Location | Daventry |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/2007 |
| Date of Death | 3/2007 |
| Visitors | 1,619 since 16/06/2007 |
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I found out i was pregnant in December 2006 it was a big shock but a pleasant shock to say the least i was really excited, everything was fine at the 12 week scan and i went away happy knowing you were growing well inside me after a few weeks i began to feel you move inside me it was such a lovely feeling but then a couple of weeks later i noticed you hadnt been omving so i went to the midwife and she found the heartbeat so i was relieved and it put my mind at rest because i was told you were at the back of my womb,my 20 week scan round and the morning of the scan i felt really worried out of the blew but my mum had my 2 other children whilst me and my fiance Ricky went to the scan i will never forget the moment the sonographer said to me i have some terrible news for you Emma your babys heart has stopped beating.......................
i was screaming no no please no i just didnt believe it these sort of things happen to other people dont they. Then she turned round and said i will ring the labour ward and shock hit me hard i just didnt realise that i would have to deliver my poor baby its not something you thuink about unless it happend to you. i was taken to a room to speak to a lady about what happens next etc and she said we will take baby away and put it in a blanket etc for you and you can see her etc at first i thought no way but then thought about it and decided i did want to see my baby. i was sent home over night and given a tablet to ripen my womb for labour the next day i had the worst night ever knowing i was carrying a dead baby inside me was gut wrenching really and i had no way of getting away from the situation because she was inside me.
The next day was the worst day of my life i delieverd our baby a beautiful baby girl she was so perfect tiny fingers eyes ears nose etc but she was silent and it felt so wrong to be holding my baby but for her to be dead Ricky was reluctant to see her at 1st but he did in the end and he was so glad he did because it showed us what we were grieving for we stayed with my baby girl Ella for 6 hours and i had to go home after that because i just knew i wouldnt be able to let go if i stayed any longer it was an evil feelign leaving her at the hospital :(
we burried our baby girl 2 weeks later in acemetary where my na is burried aswell she has a lovely pretty little grave but seeing her tiny white coofin will stay with me for ever so tiny we wrapped my little angel in a pink blanket she was to tiny to dress and we put photos of us all in with her and 3 little teddies and a letter to her x rest in peace sweet heart never ever forgotten always thought about each day xxxxxxxxxx love from mummy xxxxxxxxxxxx
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It only takes a little space, to write how much we miss you, but it will take the rest of our lives, to forget the day we lost you.
Please take care thinking of you and your family Love Amanda xx
i know!
god bless u all.been there myself in similar situation.lost my son 6 weeks after his birth went into premature labour at 26 weeks.then 3 weeks ago tomorro had a miscarriage.nothin will ever let u forget ur beautiful daughter.nothin will ever heal the pain.i dont really now what to say.god bless.take care....xxxxx
I can't change what you are going through,
I have no words to make a difference
no answers, or solutions to make things easier for you
But if it helps in any way I want to say I care
Please know that even when you're lonely
You're not alone
I'll be here, supporting you with my thoughts
Cheering for you with all my strength
Praying for you with all my heart.
For whatever you need, for as long as it takes
Lean on my love.
TO EMMA AND RICKY ME AND MY HUSBAND HAVE JUST FINISHED READING YOUR STORY AND WE WERE BOTH IN TEARS TO LOOSE A CHILD MUST BE HARD ENOUGH BUT THEN TO BE TOLD YOU HAVE TO GIVE BIRTH I CANT FOR ONE MINUTE BEGIN TO IMAGINE WHAT YOU MUST BE GOING THROUGH BUT MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU GOD BLESS LITTLE ONE XXX
so sorry
im so very sorry for your loss hun x i lost my little girl jessica at 24 weeks i read your story and it was like it was mine pretty much the same i have joined a little website for grieving parents who have had a infant loss, sands...stillbirth and neonatal death charity if you need to talk to people i would love to see you over there x when you feel ready im in there as claire-jessica's-mummy it will be 2 years tomorrow that i lost my little girl. sands website is www.uk-sands.org just go to the online forum if you would like to join us there....if not take care
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